Autumn-ing (In 29ºc)

It's my Inner Autumn.

A time when the month's gripes and annoyances come to the surface.

Where my subconscious shows me what needs to change, and encourages me to feel into that too.

It's not a time to make those changes (there's a mistake I've made before!), or to plan how to make those changes.

Just a time to feel, to notice and to reflect.

This month I am struck by rage. Pure rage.

At the world, at my life, at my business, at frustrating behavioural routines that my kids and I get sucked into.

I can feel it in my belly, in my chest, in my throat and my limbs. It heats my lungs and stifles my nose. It shakes me from my core outwards and explodes through vocalisations and roaring.

Luckily, I've been working on this kind of stuff for a while, so I (and my family) know exactly what it is and I have tools for managing it. The external damage is far less than it used to be and I can actually utilise this for its actual purpose. For change.

Like I said, now isn't the time to change the things that anger me. I have also learned that change is never instantaneous. We have to learn, we have to experiment, we have to communicate, we have to decide.

But this time enables me to know for sure whatneeds to change.

And what a gift that really is. In a world where we're not encouraged to know ourselves. What a gift to know that each month, I will be able to literally feel my way forwards in life.

I also know that now isn't necessarily the time to be creative, unless it is for my own self, for my own body to release, and for my own enjoyment.

The rage running through my fingertips, lighting up piano strings, well, now that's a force that I can get behind. But it has to be for me. I cannot channel anyone else right now.

This knowledge, and more, is what I teach in my composition lessons. For too long we have been taught that there is only one way to create, to be successful creating, but it is not true.

Work with me from September to find out.

- We have monthly, 90-minute Zoom or in person composition sessions, focusing on you and what you want to embody or achieve.

- 'Composer in your pocket' voxer support from me - message me at anytime and I will respond in my working hours

- Specific feedback and support on any music you send me weekly

£2394 for six months, with payment plans available for no extra cost.

For more info, contact me today.