Learning to Rest

This is the face of someone whose week hasn’t gone as planned…

I am gloriously busy with projects.

All which incidentally have similar deadlines, and my ability to hold the panic down is faltering.

I’m in a heavy Inner Autumn on day 37 (my fellow hormone/menstrual trackers, you know my pain)

My amazing 101 year-old Grandpa is preparing for his next journey and the grief and fear grips me hard around the chest.

And this morning, after hundreds of successful cold-water swims, I had my first scary experience of after-drop, involving emergency care and a day off to recover and recuperate after being given a clean bill of health. No, it’s not just shivering like I thought and never swim alone. Thank goodness for a brilliant swim community who stepped in when the ambulance wouldn’t come without a road name.

But despite all of this, I am learning:

• I remember that our bodies will tell us what we need, even if we can’t acknowledge it on the face of it.

• Rest isn’t weakness, it’s strength to take the action that’s most needed, even if it’s not necessarily the easiest.

• I will create better music having rested!

Community is everything. I would have been far more ill if my swimming partners hadn’t been there. My family supported us with lifts and childcare. Friends checked in on me and my godmother helped with bedtime.

So even though, on paper, my week was the worst possible week I could have had with the amount of work I have on…

I’m so grateful for the reminder that life is a cycle, that it is give and take, that it’s all about humanity and ensuring that we create meaningful, lasting positive change and joy both within our work and our daily lives.

Maybe that’s a long way of saying:

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